Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

 "and i could save this
but I'd rather go
til you say im better
than most you know"

Something that I hate about me? It's probably been on my list of New Year's resolutions for years. I hate the way I let other people - most often people who mean nothing to me - dictate the way I feel about myself.

Perfect example? Just today someone told me that as girl/lover/friend that I'm not worth fighting for. That they shouldn't HAVE to fight for me and hence it wasn't worth their time...

The Italian in me...the female in me..everything in my should have stepped up...should have told this person to take their "fight" and keep on walking. Instead? I got all introspective and depressed. I sat on my couch with the chitter chatter of my sweet boy and Patrick Star in the background playing over in my head every failed relationship I've ever had.

How do I put an end to this? How to I find a state of mind...a happiness within myself where I simply don't care what someone else thinks? Do I even want to be that person? It seems like such a cold, callous way to live. But, sitting here on my couch wondering why I'm not worth the fight....it's not so great, either...